Saturday, March 14, 2009
11:53 PM
back again.. now having holiday and worrying at the same time.. cos i am kind of lost in direction in life and dunno where to head to right now.. have been searching for job but no reply so far and hopefully can be accepted into uni. However, i really hope to work for 1 to 2 years before going to uni but the economy seems to be stopping me from doing that =( so unlucky, having to grad in times of bad recession... haix........ but i still won't give up.. will continue to search for one and have been praying =) my result is coming out this coming tues.. hope that i can get better grades as well as GPA.. then the chance of entering uni may be higher.. starting to get nervous! Ok got to calm down =p recently have been spending time with my darling and watching drama.. =p just got into one hong kong drama and their language keep on whirling in my mind.. Lol..
Excited for tmr's baking class.. weee... have sign up for one at the community centre with Joanna.. hope that the instructor will be a good one and that i can learn good recipe and don forget! how i wish to get one baking oven!!!! so that i can practice what i have learned in class and have productive results =D hope that tmr will be a fruitful and happy day for me!
ps. if anyone have any jobs available, be sure to find me ya ^_- thanks!
Thursday, February 05, 2009
10:16 PM
I did something stupid.. Feel so lost now.. so lost.. mind is in a mess now.. i feel so sorry and hurt.. why must it end like this.. maybe relationship is not meant for me.. everytime will end up unhappy with myself. feel that i am fading away. eyes so pain now.. =( and........ i still have projects uncompleted.. need strength now.. Exams are coming.. need to force myself to study and get it over with.. keep on telling myself to be strong.. hope i can do it..
Saturday, January 03, 2009
1:22 AM
Time seems to pass so fast.. It's New Year again which i don't feel it's New Year cos.....i am in polytechnic and as expected, there are bound to be lots of projects for me to rush.. However, i am still surviving! =) thank God!! even though have not been going to church and cell group but i am still praying when i am stress and of cos to thank God that I am still here in the world and that manage to cope so far. Keep on telling myself to have faith and trust in God.. by the way, just now when i was doing my work, my house suddenly black out and i have a feeling that Jesus was right beside me (believe it or not) and i just close my eyes for a moment and have a warmth feeling inside of me.. After that, the light came back and immediately i had a short revelation whereby i felt that Jesus was trying to tell me that life is like the light where we will meet our downs (darkness) and as we stand strong, we can overcome it and everything will be alright (returning to the lightness).... Dunno whether is it understandable for u guys but thats what i feel just now..
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
11:37 PM
what a tiring day today... =( Don understand why I so easily tired these days.. Can even fell asleep while standing or even walking... Do I have sickness. Haix... I am so stress up with my school work. Even though I have been hoping to go back to school to get tgt with my friends and all these but it turns out not to be what I have expected which is kind of disppointing.. To be honest, I still haven get over the working mood.. Haix.. Suddenly a pile of projects just dropped in front of me! OMG.. Cannot believe it.. Why does this have to happen to me?? I am so damn tired manx and I always tend to oversleep which was y I don dare to Slp so early cos i always kind of Cannot do wat i wan to do in the end.. *Yawn Yawn* Tired alr La........ K gg to Slp.. I love to sleep cos don have to think too much and Can dream good dreams.. =p
Tuesday, November 04, 2008
10:57 PM
Today was a tiring and happy day... Haha.. Tiring is I had a LONG day in school today.. All the teachers were so long winded.. Lol.. But I learned something from my ICT teacher. I started to see the importance of saving money especially during recession period. She even told 2 true stories that happened in America I think on 2 families and they are professionals somemore. The problem is they failed to manage their finances properly due to over spending. Thus, they need help in this area or else they have to declare bankruptcy.. Scary... Haix... So the moral of the story is have to think wisely in the area of your finances..... which I do not.. cos I always spend more than wat I received.. so I decided to not spend too much. Trying to control myself so cannot shop too much!!!! Shopping Centre!! Stop advertising too much!! =p Oh ya happy is cos can go out with my darling! hahax... XPDidn't know that entertainment centre is closed.. So went to JP instead.. The train is sooo packed man! Like sardine.. Tsk Tsk Tsk... hahax.. Tmr got to attend morning prayer meeting! First time!! it's real challenging for me cos....so early! But Pastor said that when it is unusual, manifestation will happen! hahax... So jia you!!! =p Good day ahead tmr everyone! =)
Sunday, November 02, 2008
12:40 AM
WAH it's been yearssss since I blog.... LOL.. No La I think not that long ba. Have been through so many experiences and trials.. Also managed to learn new things through working at different places. Met quite a number of friends and it's great knowing them. Yay wider range of friends ya.. Love it! ^-^ I will try to update more often. It's just that recently quite busy with work and too tired and lazy actually to update. School's gonna start this coming week! That means....more projects to come "-_- Wish me all the best.. Lol.. I miss school actually as compared to work.. Work is really tiring. I miss all my classmates. This sem will be my last.. Can't bear to leave my school life... but...life's gotta move on!! =)
Saturday, June 21, 2008
9:30 PM
Recently everything has not been right for me. I really hate it in this way. Don't feel any love. Just hatred in myself. Really wanna cast everything out of my sight, even myself. Family is like broken, no love life, always do something wrong in my workplace and get scolded even though sometimes is not my fault. Really wanna find a place to hide and get away from but dunno where.. Really have this urge to get away. To be honest, I like the feeling when I got scolded by someone cos I hate myself so much. I really wanna change but bad situations always occur that made me into this. No one even understands what I went through and always tell me to calm down and relax. It seems easy for them to say this but they don't even know what I go through. and..I also get angry easily but keep it to myself as I don't really like to vent my anger out on someone else.
